Updated: Mar 10, 2020
Fear is truly the biggest illness in the world, it slays everything it its way. It stumbles and destroys even the most powerful Queens.
Sometimes it touches even people around us, because without our inner control, fear transforms to anger towards the others.
We scream, complain, act disrespectful in all forms, just because… we fear.
Obviously, we do not want to showcase our fear, it is the rotten seed inside ourselves, which we want to keep caged.
We whisper to ourselves "No one, no one can see it". We believe that behaving in this specific way, we showcase our self-control.
We ensure ourselves that another person will, obviously, have no clue that deep inside ourselves we are just fearful.
It also has another advantage. It consumes less time, because a cursing scream accounts only for few sentences and minutes, while explanation of fear can extent to hours and hours of discussions.
Who needs that, right? Who has time for this in our busy society?
After all, we already can feel fear inside us, so certainly we do not need to go into evaluation about it, thinking more about it, and especially felling more of it!
We do not want or need to be looked as being weak, because we all know that the weak ones are often outcast away.
After all, Queens cannot be weak. Never.
In the end, we feel that suppression is the best dealing mechanism of controlling it. By this we showcase how strong we are to others, and also to ourselves.
However, we cannot hide it that well, even when we believe we do. Not for long. You see, its own nature is to sneak out by itself.
And during those times, we hit the fan. During these times we become... quite assholish (yes, it is now a word).
During these times, we smash the fear into the face of others like it is an ordinary activity, dressing it with a big costume and a mask, letting it appear in the yearly Gala party. However, even Barack Obama dressed up as Trump is still Barack Obama.
Unfortunately, if we are going to keep that hidden rotten seed inside ourselves for a long time, it will flourish.
It will start growing the deep inner roots entrenching the whole body. As we let it grow more and more - the harder it will become to remove it, ultimately, the roots will surround the most important organ in our body and squeeze it tremendously – our heart.
So, Queen, do you truly believe you control the fear by keeping it inside yourself, hiding it from others, even though it still exists and flourish deep inside yourself?